Why Prayer and Meditation Are A Search For Intelligent Life (Part 10)Published December 13, 2018
Why Prayer and Meditation Are A Search For Intelligent Life (Part 10)
Where does it hurt? If we only knew where our psychological and emotional pain was coming from we would be able to correct it. Usually our default response to the pain of living is to avoid the pain or comfort ourselves.
CHAPTER 4 – ALTERED STATE
“Now you’re a man,” daddy said after fumbling for something to say. We touched glasses and I took a sip of the strong liquor that so many men craved. They laughed as I screwed my face into a pained expression at the taste of the alcohol.
It was an eerie scene as we stood there, awkwardly trying to give the moment some deep significance. The moment should have been perfect, but it was forced. Neither of the fathers had any real insights or advice about life or manhood. They were each, in his own way, concealing disappointment with life. Perhaps it was a noble thing that they didn’t want to discourage me about my life or future. Maybe it was important for them to have optimism for the young breathing life into their fading dreams. The moment passed. We said our goodbyes, shook hands, and parted. (Excerpt from page 85-86-Finding Heaven In The Dark)
That quotation was how I wrote about my last day as a civilian before running away from my hated life and joining the Marine Corps. I was 17 years old and drowning in an emotional stew of conflicted desires and unresolved frustration with a dysfunctional existence.
My point in highlighting that scene was that the world that most people grow up in is devoid of real life answers. Some cultures are better than others but basically human societies and families embrace symbolism over substance. The assumption that since I had made an adult decision I was then an adult, was a huge mistake, as the rest of my story proved.
Life view confusion is so ingrained in human nature because we are unconscious of it. As a troubled youth I needed a patient, insightful adult, and ideally a good man, to correct my confused ideas, lack of self-awareness, and emotional maturity. Perhaps my angry teenage self would have resented and resisted any righteous correction, but by the time I was 17, without any meaningful direction, I was a lost cause.
Without knowing it then, I was looking for the Intelligent Life of the Universe! I was becoming desperate for a reason to exist. My step-father and the father of my best friend were among the walking wounded on life’s battlefields. They were clueless about any higher purpose to life other than we fashion for ourselves. They couldn’t help my soul sickness with real answers. They could only ease their pains with escape into alcohol and distractions.
There wasn’t anyone that could help me find the clues to emotional self-control. No one could teach me the importance of spiritual maturity, and the art of unlearning the person I had become.
It wasn’t until I learned to meditate using the Judeo-Christian method called Be Still and Know, that Roy Masters perfected; that I began to let go and let God teach me how to unlearn my negative, emotional, ego based life.
Awareness and objectivity require a moment to moment commitment of our willingness to be changed by the Light, in the Light, in the Present; the Now. Only then and there are we blessed with the Presence of mind to become self-correcting. It is a lifetime commitment to allow Principles that we are conscious of, through Faith in God, who has made Himself known to us during our stillness and prayers, to learn how to surrender to His Will and Divine Purpose. The Holy Bible calls this search “the beginning of Wisdom.”
Why would you think you have anything more important to do with your life than to discover the purpose for your life?
May God Bless your sincere search for understanding. Click the following link for more information about The Way To Be Still and Know.
The End of the series by:
William L. Ingram: award winning author of the memoir: Finding Heaven In The Dark https://www.findingheaveninthedark.com/
Dedicated to Roy Masters and The Foundation of Human Understanding (800) 877-3227